I had a dream a few years ago where I woke up in a very strange house...very old time furnishings and no electricity! However, there wa my plaid kimono hanging on the wall. I got up and suspected the guy I was seeing at the time was two-timing me with many different women. People wandered I from different parts of the house ! I DID NOT KNOW ONE OF THEM!! I asked then how I got there, they didn't know. They did know B who I realized was being a low down s rounded - I asked where he went, they told me of a place I had never heard of but was fairly lose by then I asked them what the date and time were. When they told me I was like on of those doge tilting it's head one way and then the next! The year was years before I was actually born! As I got on mike bike to go and see B., I got a very clear messages from THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE THE POWERS THAT BE!
Here is what I was told ( by the dream masters or the PTB ) that I could review and live through my whole life up to the present. I could go as slow as I wanted (like1sec @ a time or take it fast paced! However, once I had forwarded even ONE SECOND I was NOT allowed to change it again.
So, I was given this extraordinary movie of my life and could CHANGE anything I wanted to -that was like winning the highest lotto dream of all time! What was most astonishing to me was 1. I got to see how my grandparents lived! 2. I experienced myself being BORN!! And I was NOT happy because I didn't recognize then, they were all ET's and I had NO CLUE what they wanted from me! I zoomed forward a few years to about when I was six, I think. I saw a shadow on the edge of my life at that time but decided I didn't want to open that Pandora's boxing!, so, on and on it went.
Everytime I thought, OH YA I AM DEFINITELY MAKING ANOTHER CHOICE THIS TIME AROUND......but as I also had the time to think ahead of what i would lose if i didnt make that one choice to look to that present time as well, I realized that if I said NO to one experience that I didn't want to go thru...I realized that giving up one of my choices back then would rob me of the ABSOLUTE Best parts of my life! In the end I didn't change a single THING!
The next day, upon reflection I realized that breaking my back was not an option I was given to choose! And for a few yrs before that dream I began to think that our lives are made up of approx. 50% choice and 50% whatever we signed on for when we were brought into our present lives. I truly, from the bottom of my heart believe, I chose to go through the surgeries, pain clinics, Drs after Drs ad nauseun to teach me to be still and look inward because I was moving so fast, had a feeling of urgency that I had better get it ALL done before I reached 30 because by then I would either be dead or my life changed in such a way I could no longer race around at every whim!
It was very much like watching a tree grow! Every branch leads to another one and so on and so on and so on! Sometimes the WORST situation or choice can end up bringing your greatest treasure! You just need the courage to HOLD ON!