I really feel for you. I still miss our 12-year German Shepherd who passed away two years ago and our several cats who have passed away over the past 20 years. We find that, with time, we've been able to reminisce and smile about all the good times we had with them. We still call one of our spare bedrooms "Duke's room" because he (the GSD) liked it. We still call one of the spare bedrooms in our former house "Emily's room" because it was a favorite of one of our cats.
I wish you and your family good wishes in dealing with the pain.
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